Sooo freaking pumped for the new Rapture album
'In The Grace Of Your Love' comes out on the 2nd of September. WOOO

I'm deleting all fake fuckery from my life as of now.

* NOTE THIS WAS ALL WRITTEN BEFORE I HUNG OUT  WITH MY BEST (male) FRIEND A. an always slightly humorous & judgement-free venting session with him always manages to do the trick and suddenly all is well :)

I've been listening through the Killers discography non-stop recently and have come to the conclusion that Hot Fuss is the greatest album ever made, though I think I've always secretively known that.

so the last couple days have been absolute shit and I feel like having a bitch about it, so here goes;

Sometimes I think about how much I'd love to just have an off switch for my feelings. I don't want to feel angry, I don't want to feel guilty, I don't want to feel jealousy, I don't want to worry anymore and I especially don't want to feel lonely or sad.  I mean who would?

Things in my life are pretty good at the moment but I seem to have contracted this ability to hurt people which is the last thing I want. I also seem to be contradicting a lot of my previous beliefs just to avoid those previously stated feelings. And in the end they still manage to catch up with me, all it takes is one run in or a bad conversation and I feel like I'm just completely thrown off track.
It's like I've tried to move forward by forgetting which just hasn't really been too effective. There will always be a reminder somewhere and then I'm knocked back out again picking up the pieces and putting myself back together. I guess really though it's a good thing that I'm able to overcome it, it doesn't take as long each time to get back up but I just can't help hating myself for being so weak in the first place. Hopefully in the near future there will be no breaking, I suppose I still need to give myself more time.

If only I did have an off switch.

My darling Daisy.

Save Me by Gotye
My faveourite track from making mirrors

In the mornings,
I was anxious
Was better just to stay in bed
Didn't wanna fail myself again

Running through all the options
And the endings
Were rolling out in front of me
But I couldn't choose a thread to begin

ooh

And I could not, love
Cos I could not love myself
Never good enough no
That was all id tell myself
And I was not well
But I could not help myself
I was giving up on living

And all the dead ends
Disappointments
Fading from your memory
Ready for that lonely life to end

[And you gave me love
When I could not love myself
And you made me turn
From the way I saw myself
And your patient love
And you helped me help myself
And you save me] um no.

Hey. It feels like I haven't posted in ages when really it hasn't been all that long. wow my life is so busy at the moment, I'm working all the time, seeing my friends and just got a new pup almost a week ago so time just seems to slip away from me.

Things I've done
+bought festival tickets
+worked
+gone to the afl
+been out every weekend for the past 13 weeks
+became addicted to black coffee
+gym every once and a while
+hung out with friends
+saw transformers 3
+been shopping for things for my puppy
+ditched uni
+started planning my euro tour for the summer

Things I'm doing in the near future
+buying more festival tickets
+working more
+gyming more
+drinking more black coffee
+going out again this weekend
+seeing harry potter pt.2 again
+handing in a piece of shit assignment
+getting my hair done
+booking my euro tour
+booking my trip to sydney for my cousins 21st/grandpa's 90th
+marrying the drummer from Foster the people
+throwing my own festival in my bedroom to get me pumped for Parklife
+going to spend more time reading/writing in the park
+doing other spontaneous things that 18year olds get up to


gahhh I cannot wait to hear this live

all my beautiful girl friends have to watch this.