Parklife Tickets.  Check
Stereosonic Tickets. Buying them on Thursday!!
Falls Festival Tickets. Waiting til the 17th
Summafieldayze Tickets. Waiting lineup release
Soundwave 2012. Waiting on Lineup release
Good Vibes 2012. Waiting on Lineup release
Big Day Out 2012. WAITING TIL OCTOBER FOR LINEUP RELEASE!


It's amazing being 18. Cannot wait to go to all these festivals over the summer wooohoo

Summafieldayze 2012 | Colourfornia* from Future TV on Vimeo.

"Slept, awoke, slept, awoke, miserable life.”
— Franz Kafka

"Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I’m not sure about the former.”
— Albert Einstein (1879-1955)

“I must be a mermaid. I have no fear of depths and a great fear of shallow living.”
— Anaïs Nin

“We found out a long time ago that we weren’t meant to fall in love with each other. But a part of me still fell in hope with him.”
— David Levithan

“Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too.
They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.”
— Stephen King

“I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.”
— F. Scott Fitzgerald

“Scar tissue is stronger than regular tissue. Realize the strength, move on.”
— Henry Rollins

“I have a message to those who attacked us. A message from the whole of Norway. You won’t destroy us. You won’t destroy our democracy. We are a small but proud nation. No one can bomb us to silence. No one can scare us from being Norway. And when tomorrow comes, let’s show the world that the Norwegian democracy still stands strong. The most important thing tonight is to take care of each other.”
— Jens Stoltenberg

“Physical good looks don’t necessarily appeal to me just by themselves. If a man has that indefinable quality that I can only call “warmth” or “charm”, then I’ll feel at ease with him.”
— Audrey Hepburn

“I don’t care what you think about me. I don’t think about you at all.”
— Coco Chanel

“Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine.”
— Ralph Waldo Emmerson

I'm really disappointed in my relationships with some of my friends at the moment. It just gets to me that some of the people I call my "closest" friends are still so fake towards me. I can share so much of myself with them and still get nothing in return but empty banter. I'm starting to wonder if it's me that's the problem.. or are they insecure in my company? I've always tried not to judge people without due reason and least of all my friends.

I'm also over my so called "friends" putting me down or gossiping about things in my life that are none of their business to other people. Is there no one I can trust anymore?? It seems like everyone I have trusted has let me down lately in one way or another:'(

I LOVE LONDON

I actually want to do this in London when I go. God shes awesome.

FUCKING STOP.
It's supposed to be gone by now.
Why is it, I can be at work, having an amazing day and suddenly I just feel it. This empty space in my chest, it aches and I don't even know why it's still there. I try to ignore it, but this hole just lingers like a ghost. I saw a page on Facebook "crying naked in the bathroom listening to Adele", it actually perfectly describes me. I don't know if its supposed to be a joke or not but I always cry in the shower, its the perfect place. The streaming tears mingle with the water on my cheeks and the sound of my choking sobs are absorbed by droplets hitting the tiles. My sadness is hidden from all eyes but my own and slowly washes down the drain leaving me feeling better or somewhat numbed.

I'm so happy, too happy to be brought down by this anymore. The space needs to go but all I can do is wait it out.

Holly Golightly: You know those days when you get the mean reds? 
Paul Varjak: The mean reds, you mean like the blues? 
Holly Golightly: No. The blues are because you're getting fat and maybe it's been raining too long, you're just sad that's all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling? 
Paul Varjak: Sure. 
Holly Golightly: Well, when I get it the only thing that does any good is to jump in a cab and go to Tiffany's. Calms me down right away. The quietness and the proud look of it; nothing very bad could happen to you there. If I could find a real-life place that'd make me feel like Tiffany's, then - then I'd buy some furniture and give the cat a name! 

My favourite movie & the Tiffany necklace I'm buying. The prospect of infinity has a lot of meaning to me. When I was younger me and my mum would say every night after prayers; "I love you to the moon and back" and I'd always reply "I love you to the moon and back times infinity" so I'd win. My Mum means the world to me, shes been with me through it all even when I didn't deserve her patience and help, she is the one person I can always rely on to be there for me and her unconditional love is the thing I treasure most. Cannot wait to buy it!

I look around the train and I think to myself. Has she felt it? Does that middle aged woman sitting opposite me know the feeling I have?
It sometimes occurs to me how much we hide ourselves away from the rest of the world. I wonder what is happening in the lives of all these other people surrounding me. Perhaps his mother just passed away? maybe she's broke? maybe that man just got engaged?
Who truly knows but them...........I'd really like to though.

FASCINATION ENDS
I've discovered there is way too much music that I love to post it all here so this is my official music blog. There will be a permanent link on the right above the music player. Enjoy!
E.

Off to see Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows part II in 6hrs.
I cannot believe this is the end, I'm so excited but also slightly devastated. Harry Potter is just one of those traditions that happens every year like halloween or my birthday. Up until now it's  been like a guarantee that there will be a next movie every year and now it's finally ending. Thank you to the brilliant mind of J.K Rowling for creating a world of magic and escape for me over the past 10 years.

Au Revoir Simone are truly beautiful. I love revisiting lost music in my Itunes, 'Sad Song' was my bus ride home song back in year 9. I'd start playing it from the same point every day so it was just ending as I got off the bus. If you're listening to it on the playlist- she starts singing around 0:45 seconds

This is 'Stay Golden'.

One day I'll have a house
it will be filled with books and surrounded by trees
it will be close enough to hear the sea
it will have some land with room enough for an orchard and space to wander
it will have a turquoise kitchen and a big family table
in the winter a warm fireplace will be put to use
and in the summer the floor to ceiling windows & doors will always remain ajar
the house will never be silent or lonely because music will fill the empty spaces
One day I'll have this home.

Just found out that I passed my Chemistry subject at uni! I can't even say how happy I am right now. Initially I never thought I could do it..  I actually feel a bit proud of myself. To some it wouldn't seem like a great achievement but to me it means so much, especially when I came so close to giving up on  it altogether. It's proof to myself that if I put my mind to it I can do more than I expect.

HOLY MERLIN'S BEARD I'M ECSTATIC!

I've had such a blissful weekend after 5 days of work I just had two days off woo. Yesterday I took a drive on my own down to B beach and today I fell asleep at the park with my ipod in and the warming sun on my back like a blanket (although I did get a little burnt). But what really struck me is how the positive personalities of strangers can just make your day so much better.

• I met and had a 30minute conversation with a lovely old man from Liverpool in England and now I'm convinced I must go. 
• A sweet woman at the petrol station saying "have a fabulous day Possum!" made my day
• Ladies at cute little boutiques talking to me about work and my daily life was really refreshing and fun. One even remembered me from last time I was in the shop and we got talking about vegetarian cuisine and places we both loved to eat.
• Little kids at the park being all inquisitive and asking me what I'm doing when I'm laying about writing in my diary, just watching them running around playing tiggy was enough to make me smile ridiculously.

Its really just such a joy meeting all these people, what a simple pleasure I have missed out on up until now :D

Simplicity. "Sometimes the best things in life are the simplest"

  Somebody That I Used To Know (feat. Kimbra) by Gotye
I've always loved Gotye, he had me hooked from 'Hearts a mess' back in 2008. He was number 11 on the Triple J top 100 Aussie albums which is unsuprising to me (no.11 also just happens to be my favourite number). I'm absolutely in love with this song.

but you didn't have to cut me off, make out like it never happened and that we were nothing. :'(

I'm just going to say it
He's not just somebody that I used to know, even though I know I'm nothing.  I love him. I ABSOLUTELY STILL LOVE HIM. But its over, 2 months on and I still don't know what to do. Everytime it gets harder seeing him, isn't it supposed to get easier? Can we atleast start being friends now?
I want to laugh about goofy goobers,  ballroom dance down hallways, make milkshakes, go on picnics, play fight in bed, swim at night and sing about alligators in pajamas.




Someone please tell me how to do this, I was doing so well up until I heard about her.


woah that is the evidence of a drunken weak moment right here.

• reading Donna Hay, Delicious & Triple J mags
• listening to U2 , Fleet Foxes, Crowded house, The Seabellies, Red Hot Chilli Peppers and Coldplay
• contemplating whether to go to a party on Friday even though I've been invited to one tomorrow night and Saturday
• eating my weights worth of peanut butter and rye toast
• watching masterchef and black books online
• feeling uber excited for Harry Potter, tired from being at the patch and hopeful with my work experience application   

Waste - Foster The People

Probably my favourite song on the amazing album that is Torches

There were never strawberries

like the ones we had
that sultry afternoon
sitting on the step
of the open french window
facing each other
your knees held in mine
the blue plates in our laps
the strawberries glistening
in the hot sunlight
we dipped them in sugar
looking at each other
not hurrying the feast
for one to come
the empty plates
laid on the stone together
with the two forks crossed
and I bent towards you
sweet in that air
in my arms
abandoned like a child
from your eager mouth
the taste of strawberries
in my memory
lean back again
let me love you
let the sun beat
on our forgetfulness
one hour of all
the heat intense
and summer lightning
on the Kilpatrick hills

let the storm wash the plates

STRAWBERRIES BY EDWIN MORGAN

In celebration of Harry Potter part II

Harry Potter- Tell about a scar on your body.
I have a circle scar where a pencil went into my knee
Ron Weasley- Something you’re afraid of.
snakes
Hermione Granger- A subject you know a lot about.
nurtition? food?
Draco Malfoy- Closest green item to you.
old school bag
Severus Snape- Your favorite Alcoholic beverage.
fruit tingle
Rubeus Hagrid- Your favorite animal.
umm maybe elephants or fireflies
Luna Lovegood- Something about you other people find weird.
I eat apple cores and kiwi skin
Neville Longbottom- Your favorite flower.
lilies
Nimphodorah Tonks- Something you would change about your appearance.
numerous things
Fred and George Weasley- The last prank you pulled on someone, or someone pulled on you.
I don't really remember except in year 8,  I told my bff I was going to japan with her on april fools, but that was just mean
Voldemort- If you were to make a Horcrux, it would be…
a shell from Avoca
Moaning Myrtle- The last thing to make you cry.

memories


I'm so excited to be seeing the midnight screening again Hoooray!

Don't you just absolutely love it when you turn the car on only to hear your favourite song playing on the radio. So you automatically turn it up as loud as it will go while (in my case terribly) singing your lungs out. That was me with 'Mr Brightside' the other day..it got me thinking though, can I really narrow down all my favourite songs to just one...No.

These are the songs that can make me cry with happiness or smile with nostalgia, that can make any situation blissful  and that I shamelessly blast and dance to like a crazy person when I'm home alone.

Here is my top 11 in no particular order.

Paint the Silence - South

Mr Brightside - The Killers

Bittersweet Symphony - The Verve

New Slang - The Shins

Shooting Stars - Bag Raiders

Tiny Dancer - Elton John
Breath Me - Sia

Tip of your Tongue - Porcelain Raft

Nosebleed Section - Hilltop Hoods

Sometimes - Miami Horror

Sound of Silence - Simon and Garfunkle